stare at the sun歌詞

I sit here clutching useless lists
Keys for doors that dont exist
I crack my teeth on pearls
Tear into the history
Show me what it means to me
In this world ya in this world
Cause i am due for a miracle
Im waiting for a sign
Stare straight into the sun
And i wont close my eyes
Untill i understand or go blind
I see the parts but not the whole
Study saints and scholars both
But no perfect plan unfurls
Do i trust my heart or just my mind
Why is truth so hard to find in this world
Ya in this world
Cause i am due for a miracle
Im waiting for a sign
Stare straight into the sun
And i wont close my eyes
Untill i understand or go blind
I know that theres a point i missed
A shrine or stone i haven t kissed
A scar that never graced my wrist
A mirror that hasn t met my fist
But i can t help feeling like