Auntie Diaries歌詞

[00:00.000] 作詞 : Craig Balmoris
[00:00.016] 作曲 : Craig Balmoris
[00:00.033]Heart plays in waves, the mind can't figure out
[00:02.801]Heart plays in waves, the mind can't figure out
[00:05.576]Heart plays in waves, the mind can't figure out
[00:08.592]This is how we conceptualize human beings
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[00:20.628]My auntie is a man now
[00:23.190]I think I'm old enough to understand now
[00:26.427]Drinking Paul Masson with her hat turned backwards
[00:28.487]Motorola pager off like, "Yes, Jackie"
[00:31.040]Blue Air Max's, gold chains and curl kits
[00:33.772]'93 Nissan wax job, the earliest
[00:35.779]Big social, big personality, vocal
[00:38.342]Played underground verbatim and stayed local
[00:40.731]My auntie is a man now
[00:43.225]I watch him and his girl hold their hands down
[00:45.844]Tip of the avenues street lights made his
[00:47.707]Thinking, "I want me a bad ***** when I get big"
[00:50.340]They walk the corner like California king
[00:52.231]Cold hand all up her skirt, cars whistling down the road
[00:54.660]See, my auntie is a man now, slight bravado
[00:58.157]Scratching the likes from lotto
[00:59.691]Hoping that she pull up tomorrow
[01:00.929]So I can hang out in the front seat
[01:02.366]Six by nines keeping the music up under me
[01:04.556]My auntie is a man now
[01:06.949]Asked my momma why my uncles don't like him that much
[01:09.391]And at the parties why they always wanna fight him that much
[01:11.609]She said "Ain't no telling
[01:13.717]Niggas always been jealous because he had more women
[01:15.903]More money and more attention made more envy
[01:17.916]Calling him anything but than broke was less offending"
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[01:21.671]My auntie is a man now
[01:23.660]I think I'm old enough to understand now
[01:25.835]Drinking Paul Masson with her hat turned backwards
[01:28.025]Back when it was comedic relief to say "******"
[01:30.678]******, ****** ******, we ain't know no better
[01:33.568]Elementary kids with no filter however
[01:35.802]My auntie became a man and I took pride in it
[01:37.964]She wasn't gay, she ate *****, and that was the difference
[01:40.443]That's what I told my friends in second grade
[01:42.751]She picking me up from school, they stare at her in the face
[01:45.390]They couldn't comprehend what I grew accustomed
[01:47.717]We pull off bumpin' quick like it was nothing
[01:50.363]My auntie is a man now, what a relationship
[01:53.537]I grew up fast, I needed no one to babysit
[01:55.863]He gave me some cash then gave me some gang
[01:57.674]Cherry freshener on the dash, I never complained
[01:59.507]She even cut my hair at the pad, was loving my fade
[02:01.443]The first person I seen write a rap
[02:03.963]That's when my life had changed
[02:06.176]House full of demo, smoke stuck on the window
[02:07.747]Cameras on the microphone, all women and men though
[02:10.643]My auntie was a man now, we cool with it
[02:12.924]The history had trickled down and made us ig'nant
[02:16.286]My favorite cousin said he's returning the favor
[02:18.390]And following my auntie with the same behavior
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[02:21.215]Demetrius is Mary-Ann now
[02:22.847]He's more confident to live his plan now
[02:25.154]But the family in disbelief this time
[02:27.628]Convincing themselves "He ain't living discreet, he's fine"
[02:30.086]They said they never seen it in him, but I seen it
[02:32.415]The Barbie dolls played off the reflection of Venus
[02:35.384]He built a wall so tall you couldn't climb over
[02:37.955]He didn't laugh as hard when the kids start joking
[02:40.503]"******, ******, ******" We ain't know no better
[02:42.885]Middle school kids with no filter, however
[02:45.322]I had to be very mindful of my good cousin
[02:47.707]I knew exactly who he was but I still loved him
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[02:51.269]Demetrius is Mary-Ann now
[02:53.017]I mean he's really Mary-Ann, even took things further
[02:55.902]Changed his gender before Bruce Jenner was certain
[02:57.703]Living his truth even if it meant see a surgeon
[02:59.969]We didn't talk for a while, he seemed more distant
[03:02.751]Wasn't comfortable around me, everything was offensive
[03:05.100]But I recall we both had a sick sense of humor
[03:07.927]Made raw, but time changes all
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[03:11.245]Demetrius is Mary-Ann now
[03:12.892]Remember church, Easter Sunday?
[03:15.110]I sat in the pew, you had stronger faith
[03:17.016]More spiritual when these dudes were living life straight
[03:19.701]Which I found ironic 'cause the pastor didn't see him the same
[03:22.270]He said my cousin was going through some things
[03:24.914]He promised the world we living in was an act on abomination
[03:27.432]And Demetrius was to blame
[03:29.476]I knew you was conflicted by the feelings a preacher made
[03:32.198]Wondering if God still call you a decent man
[03:34.636]Still you found the courage to be subservient just to anoint
[03:37.492]Until he singled you out to prove his point, saying
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[03:40.948]Demetrius is Mary-Ann now
[03:42.663]Church, his auntie is a man now, it hurt
[03:46.133]He the most 'cause his belief was close to his words
[03:48.721]Forcing me to stand now
[03:50.739]I said "Mr. Preacher man, should we love thy neighbor?
[03:52.901]The laws of the land or the heart, what's greater?
[03:55.677]I recognize the study she was taught since birth
[03:58.201]But that don't justify the feelings that my cousin preserved"
[04:01.045]The building was thinking out loud, bad angel
[04:03.511]That's when you looked at me and smiled, said "Thank you"
[04:05.529]The day I chose humanity over religion
[04:08.210]The family got closer, it was all forgiven
[04:10.244]I said them F-bombs, I ain't know any better
[04:12.680]Mistakenly I didn't think you'd know any different
[04:15.176]See, I was taught words was nothing more than a sound
[04:17.726]If everything was pronounced without any intentions
[04:20.382]If every second you challenge the shit I was kicking
[04:22.490]Reminded me about a show I did out the city
[04:25.227]That time I brung a fan on stage to rap
[04:27.754]But disapproved the word that she couldn't say with me
[04:30.620]You said "Kendrick, ain't no room for contradiction
[04:33.040]To truly understand love, switch position
[04:35.682]'******, ******, ******,' we can say it together
[04:38.208]But only if you let a white girl say 'Nigga'"