[00:05.016]It's January 1st 2021
[00:08.950]And I'm in my feelings
[00:12.436]And I just wanna rap
[00:14.583]**** a hook
[00:18.142]Yeah, why do I feel like I'm depressed
[00:21.361]I feel like my whole life is a mother****ing stress
[00:23.450]Sometimes I see the news and wish that I could die next
[00:25.748]It's a crippling feeling that most could never digest
[00:28.064]Every January 1st I don't wanna wake up
[00:30.404]That's the day I met this girl who totally ****ed me up
[00:32.775]Mentally, the PTSD's hurt and all of it sucks
[00:35.237]It left a hole chest that money can't cover up
[00:37.604]Was never enough, I felt it deep in my bones
[00:39.844]Always feeling disconnected, always glued to my phone
[00:42.237]Tired of fakes friends, I cut them off so now I'm alone
[00:44.691]They don't love me for me they only love me cuz I'm known
[00:47.003]I got fans who support me and wanna see me win
[00:49.326]But I feel like a loser Im a need a bottle of gin
[00:51.837]I made a million dollars but there's nothing to give
[00:54.190]If there's a god, tell me where has he been
[00:55.932]I been searching for real
[00:57.146]Every new years, I get in my feels
[00:58.903]Cuz I hate the way that I ****ing feel
[01:00.635]I got scars that don't heal
[01:01.931]It's a new year but it's the same pain in my heart
[01:04.197]And that's a hurt thats gon' stick with me still
[01:06.097]I wonder if real love is something that I can find
[01:08.420]In a world full a fakes who keep wasting my time
[01:10.800]I been questioning my faith and I'm loosing my mind
[01:13.139]If god is real then show me sign