[00:00.000] 作词 : Graf Von Baphomet
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Alex Menabde
[00:02.135] (Intro from dialogue between interviewer and a Patient with schizophrenia)
[00:04.324] It’s gonna be hearing tomorrow to see whether or not is there any legal basis why you have to stay here.
[00:10.803] I’m not crazy.
[00:12.042] If it was up to you would you like to leave the hospital tomorrow?
[00:14.516] I’d like to leave the hospital tomorrow because I’ve got things I gonna do.
[00:18.038] What brought you into the hospital?
[00:20.085] I turned myself in on a 5150 because I felt like killing myself.
[00:23.502] Okay so you came here voluntarily.
[00:26.313] So I could stop from killing myself.
[00:28.965] And what was going on that you felt like killing yourself?
[00:31.147] It was 3 o’clock in the morning. I couldn’t sleep although the same thoughts kept breaking through my mind over and over and over again.
[00:36.672] I just wanted them to stop periodically.
[00:39.180] Have you ever made any suicide attempts?
[00:41.290] Oh yeah I have a couple of when I was 19.
[00:44.053] Okay. Are you usually able to ask for help when you start feeling like that?
[00:49.356] No I wasn’t able to ask for help before.
[00:51.957] OK so this is a new thing you coming into a hospital.
[00:55.664] The way I came in here is not as unlike any other way I’ve ever come into a hospital.
[00:59.204] Asking people“ please help me ”so I didn’t kill myself.
[01:06.084] Нависли как тучи печальные мысли.
[01:13.946] Сдавила горло немая тоска.
[01:21.496] Я чувствую скоро сломаюсь-
[01:29.976] Суну в петлю голову я.
[01:37.782] Я устал от бессоницы долгой
[01:45.825] От своих грустных стихов я устал.
[01:53.672] Я устал казаться нормальным.
[02:01.524] Я устал, я устал, я устал, я устал.
[02:42.094] Нет уже сил по барам спиваться.
[02:51.191] Но и нет сил прекращать запой.
[02:58.599] Нет уже сил хоть за что-то держаться
[03:06.389] Весь мой мир словно не мой, немой.
[03:46.195] Ни рыдать ни осталось желания
[03:53.869] Не ощущаю живым я себя.
[04:01.889] Я чувствую скоро сломаюсь
[04:09.686] Суну в петлю голову я.
[05:22.126] Когда перестану я думать о смерти?
[05:30.117] Когда-же избавлюсь от самого себя?
[05:38.756] Вошь я дрожащая или правда посмею
[05:46.622] Убить...Убить...самого себя?
[05:54.269] Когда перестану я думать о смерти?
[06:02.508] Когда-же избавлюсь от самого себя?
[06:10.941] Вошь я дрожащая или правда посмею
[06:18.562] Убить...Убить...самого себя?
[07:00.279] Oh, my Darkness ;My Painfull Goddes;Oh, my Darkness;Oh, my sweet Decadance
[07:30.253] Oh, my Darkness ;My Painfull Goddes;Oh, my Darkness;Oh, my sweet Decadance
[09:34.132] (Ending from Отвратительная водка СССР 1961, Hypnosis therapy to cure dipsomania)